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hour 27 2/3: 10:40 am.

i feel fantastic. matcha powder in my banana mango smoothie i guess does wonders... so does sewing. anything involving fingers and working. and making a wicked awesome halloween costume. all other ideas have been mooooted. moooot. moot. clamato juice.

hour 39 3/4: 9:49ish pm.

i feel fantastic. super serious dance parties that travel from living room to kitchen to back porch to living room to front lawn = superfantastic. i am a teddy bear. with all modesty, of course. several times almost fading whilst driving make me appreciate legs and walking and alert conciousness. still going strong, still almost just past oh yes half way. we can do this, but not alone. all or nothing please. there is fuzz and fluff everywhere.

hour 42: 1:01 am.

i feel fantastic. disappearing for a time before anyone notices i had time to myself. its still glorious getting away from noise and being silent. glorious silence, immaculate reflection.

hour 44: 3:20 am.

i feel fantastic. at any point i could lay down my head and sleep for hours. maybe the hallucinations are worth it, maybe not. maybe i'm not doing nearly as good soooe (here is where i fell asleep for fractions of seconds typing.) similar to the split seconds i spent walking in another fleeting direction that my brain wanted... its no dice.



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dangit. that was definitely amazing. sleeping that is. failure, not so much, but i've got time...