those'r weak

still can't shake the non-deleting. its like life when you mess up. the mistake needs to stay in painful view for all to see or be forgotten along the other meaningless experiences that didn't help shape character or personal dexterity. insomia sprouts when worry prevails, and worry surfaces when the possiblity of change becomes a reality based upon decision. the outcome will inevitably be the same, but the path to get there changes dramatically from familiarity, and selfish fortitude shifts what should be excitement into something that teems with unrest at 4am. the only comfort that can be taken is it will either be a readable mistake, forgettable livepass or an amazing adventure. all have their place but only 2 work for the life that likes growing. who needs sleep anyways. productivity is not as bunk as 15 hours of unconcious mental drainage when the other 9 hours are split between a couch and social touch. once the worry is dealt with it splits into what can be done about it, and what can be done about it is almost as exhausting as the worry, as willingness to start immediately for fear of losing the idea drives the stay for alertness. on and on, untill a pillow finds its way to a head that is afraid of the sleep it needs. phwahhh!