why do we (i mean the others i know who are like this as well) enjoy pain? what is it about cuts and scrapes and bruises that make us feel so .... tough? even though it's obviously a display of our fragility? is it because we've danced with destruction and come out not only dead, but with scars that tell stories? or is it just the stories, yet we feel we need to validate those stories with proof of our encounter? or is it for ourselves, a prompt reminder that we are not invincible and shouldn't be treating ourselves as such... OR IS IT that it's a reward for doing something awesome and having a medal for a few days or weeks afterwards, allowing a mental pat on the back every time we see our ripped magnificently healing skin? i think it's the scab picking that is so rewarding. sure it's disgusting. but HOW fascinating is healing skin?! more importantly, why was the highlight of my day a completely failed play in two hand touch football, requiring me to dive across ice for a ball i couldn't reach, allowing sharpness to penetrate my skin and cause bleeding for the next hour an a bit, all over my arm and eventually sean's donated shirt? was it because someone called me a warrior? having limbs covered in blood is no cause for being called a warrior... clumsy, maybe. zealous, for sure. but not a warrior... that's left for people who can claim to kill without feeling, of which i am not. i was/just am fascinated at what happens to the body, and what the body happens to do because of these happenings. PLUS it's fun to talk about PLUS eventually i'll get to pick some nasty scabs PLUS i get to gross queasy people out PLUS i get to admire what my arms and hip would look like if i got into a fight with an asian knife gang OR a plethora of skin eating pigeons PLUS two hand touch football cred. all this to wonder upon and say: i think we can all enjoy a good scrape of the body. it's just when the insides get hurt you would never describe such pain with this delight... let's play nice. feelings don't heal as good as skin.
but now on to a REAL topic, continued after some research in the next blog. trend setting vs. twilight, which i am out to destroy.
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